Back after 11 years

 I came across my blog suddenly, after 11 years.

Was pleasantly surprised by what i saw. Seems like the younger me was a much more optimistic soul. 

Life update: I was in MBBS when i started this blog. Now, i have finished my MS, MRCS and MCh and i now specialize in Urology. Presently, I'm working as an Assistant professor in Rajiv Gandhi Super Specialty Hospital (OPEC). 

what made me come back to blogging?

So today (23/06/25), i operated on a 9 year old with PUJO (pelviureteric junction obstruction). i was a little anxious because i had not operated on a child before. And, a senior consultant of mine, wanted me to approach through a different incision which i was not used to, making the orientation difficult. Anyway, i proceeded with the surgery, followed the steps i was supposed to and reached the kidney, identified the ureter, looped it and dissected it upwards. To my surprise, i couldn't find the point of narrowing, which is usually at the level of the lower pole. So i went further above, only to reach the hilum without seeing any transition. The child was previously stented, leading me to assume the obstruction had disappeared because of it?. But i didn't want to base a decision made on an assumption, hence i called my senior consultant. He dissected it further towards the hilum, only to realise it was an intrarenal pelvis with the PUJO very close to the Renal Parenchyma. Thankfully, my Senior is trained from CMC vellore, a very reputed college for urology, so it was easy for him to make a decision. we initially thought of doing it like a heinicke-mickulicz procedure, which would mean no excision of the redundant part, but went ahead with Anderson Hynes Pyeloplasty, which made the suturing very difficult because of the short end of pelvis we had. Sir did the posterior layer and let me close the anterior layer and put a drain and close. I was kinda glad i got to see such a case and wanted to pen it down somewhere. Hence the post.

There have been many days in the past few years that i have seen interesting cases. But it never occured to me to have it written. 

Maybe today is the change. Hopefully this will become a Routine. 

Feel you are mediocre?

People are mediocre in activities they do not like. You cannot master something you are not internally interested in. You probably walk in the wrong direction. If something is engaging your mind and you want to do it voluntary in your free time - this is the sign to look at.

But whatever path you choose, there is a way to unleash your internal barriers.
One option is to cultivate maniac attitude. For some time you can become intentional maniac. Surround yourself with things related to your subject. Decorate your room with them. Dig inside the subject details. Talk about them passionately, all the time. Turn your face away from distractions. With equal other conditions this mindset will give you advantage.

What keeps me going!

"Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save." - Will Rogers

To me, this means live your life in the moment and at its own speed.
Plans and goals are fine, but don't be afraid to take a short journey off the chosen path.
Enjoy it as it happens; the good, the bad and everything in-between.

"People are constantly warned not to overdo. It is only by overdoing that we learn how much we can do." - Marjorie Barstow Greenbie

Live. Make mistakes. Bite off more than you can chew. Experience life outside your comfort zone.
How will you ever know what you are capable of if you never unleash the full power?

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." - Mark Twain

No further explanation needed.

Go live your life to the fullest, fear no regret.

A change in a nerd's life!

well, i still remember the time i got my result after my 10th.. 94.5 was what i got, and was cursing myself for that (makes me laugh when i think about that now)..
then came the time which is given a lot of importance, atleast in India, 11th and 12th, well the marks weren't as good as i expected them to be (all thanks to the languages) but i didn't give a damn as i knew that CET was what mattered..
Getting a rank of 213 and getting placed in the 2nd best medical college in karnataka had raised all bars of expectations of ma and papa..
Thus started my life of medicine!
it was tough initially with all the new medical terms and heavy books i had to work with, but that didn't last long as one gets adjusted to the external environment!
1st year MBBS, continued the nerd version of me, with studying the books at least thrice before i gave my exam.. Marks were good too! i was one among the very few people who had passed all 9 internals!
After 2 months of tiring holidays, we entered the 2nd phase, which is of 1 and 1/2 year.. with what the seniors had told us, 2nd year was the so called "honeymoon period"
and as the saying goes "the grass is always on the greener side", i wanted to know how it feels to be on the side of people who do not study (and i would regret that :P)
Wasted my complete 2nd year working for some of the lazy seniors (since i was the representative of our class) , and mess prefect-ship and shit.. there was always some thing i had to do! and ya, one thing, RESPONSIBILITIES SUCK!
SO, back to the topic after i brief introduction, :P
How does it feel when a person who has been studying all his life stops and goes for a change?? the answer is... AWFUL!
Change is not always good!
spending all the time outside, having responsibilities, organizing things, has not been my type of 'how i enjoy my life' (since all the good memories i have of my past are based on me having good marks and a very small circle of friends)
People usually have a lot of fun, when they do something adventurous, go on a trip or whatever! but i spent all my time regretting, because of the time i had wasted all along, so, i could never live in the present!
So, "dhobi ka kutta, na ghar ka, na ghaat ka" neither did i study, nor did i have fun! (Basically because i didn't how to MANAGE those two together)
Now that i've lost something important i had (the fun of being good at studies), i'm left with two options, stay this way, indulge myself in the extracurricular things and just pass MBBS, OR study my ass out in the coming time and get good marks...
Well, i see a clear winner there :D
so, 4 years of MBBS left, with an year of internship and an year of rural service!
hope what i predict of myself really turns out well!!

why I love my place!

It was just another normal day and as usual, we the 5th termers reached late to the medicine postings.. Just satisfied to see the professor there (which usually doesn't happen) we stepped in..
The class was about renal system.. The professor somehow deviated from the topic telling how pleasurable our daily activities are (like micturation and defeacation :P)
Well, this is in way related to what I am going to write further, but it just reminded me "why" I love me place!
Raichur, as others already have an idea, is a very hot place, is more like a village than a city ( thogh its on the verge of starting development) and has pigs roaming everywhere! :P
But the best part of the place, is the PEOPLE!
Most of the newer generation these days including us, spend most of our time in front of social networking sites and claim to have a good social circle!
But it's no comparison with what the people in raichur have, its better than any facebook or twitter..
A place where "love thy neighbour" is still followed! Not only neighbors, they follow "love every stranger" :D
A place where people volunteer to help without asking.. One random day, I had to get my dl done and I didn't have a single idea of how it's done.. Just wandering in the office here and there, some person whom I had never seen, came to me and told me what all to do.. Now seriously, where else do you find such people?
I kind of have an observeration that my friends over there are better human beings than the ones here in mysore!
The value relationships are given there, is really high!
Its all about the interaction with people that a doctor has to do!
And if given a chance, I would definitely opt to do medical service in my place!
And as the article started and as I always keep saying, the reason we live is to be happy..
So, find a place which makes you happy!
Find the things which make you happy!
And your life will be pleasurable! (like micturation and defeacation) :D

what is it to be mature?

maturity - how do you define it? a state when you stop growing? a state of full development? well, its different from everyone's perspective.. i still dont understand how some like judge someone on their maturity..well, 1 thing I'm sure of, is that its in no way related to the age of a person..
there comes a time in everybody's life when you learn to decide what's right and wrong for yourself.. embarrassing incidents which once made you cry, thoughts of those will make you laugh.. you tend to weigh things according to their importance.. you love someone, and sometimes be mature enough to let it go.. you make a lot of friends, and sometimes enemies.. you realise the importance of people in your life, you realise your responsibilities on yourself.. if all this is happening to you, then you are on the verge of starting to know what maturity..
responsibility, how is it different from maturity?
well, from an angle they tend to look the same, but it's never true.. just like albert Einstein was mature, but in a way irresponsible.. take our situation into account, we are mature enough to understand that we need to study to pass our exams, but never responsible enough to study everything..
one more misconception people have, but on which i disagree and stand by my words that having fun is in no way related to this shit.. there are a lot of things which dont need to be classified based on their maturity.. so, the conclusion is just that one just has to live his life the wants it to be and learn the lessons which life teaches him.. well, just learning won't help, improvising things into your life, learning from your and others' mistakes is how you have a part of the so called "maturity"